Post Birth!!!

Here I am, as nervous like a cheating wife knowing her husband knows, scared out my mind. There is no hiding from it now. The doctor passes me the scissors so I can cut the umbilical cord, I must say it was awesome cutting the cord, don't ask me why, it just was. There she lay just light as can be with a head full of hair, and crying. I'm just snapping as many photos as my phone will allow me to do. I'm thinking to myself I need to learn how to change diapers fast because I'm sure Caroline won't be changing them all by herself. They clean her up and hand her to me. I look cool, calm, and collected, but inside I am freaking out hoping I don't drop this gift from God. Trying to pass her so others can hold her was a nightmare, I mean she is precious cargo after all. But it was a success.

Now even though this is our first child, I have never heard of something called afterbirth. Let me tell you the afterbirth seems much more painful than the regular birth. For those men or women who don't know what that is, allow me to explain it: Afterbirth is where they remove the placenta from the stomach. Let me say my fiance was a trooper during birth but man oh man I can only imagine the pain that it causes. Caroline was nearly in tears and moaning and aching in pain. If you are squirmish then maybe you shouldn't read further. What happens is the doctor massages your stomach pressing down on it, moving their hands downward. So I am standing there watching this and while they are doing it all of this mucus and blood is gushing out and believe me it is a stomach turner. Then out comes this huge thing that I have NEVER seen, the placenta, it looked so disgusting a little piece actually came close to hitting me, luckily for me being in the fire dept you see a lot of crazy things, but this...coming from someone I know and love...was a bit of another story.

The whole experience was eye opening and educational. I loved being a part of this miracle called life. As a volunteer fire fighter you do many things, but being a part of a birting experience is awesome. My little girl, so small and precious, cute as a button. Still can't believe she is mine. It took a while to see those big beautiful brown eyes of her hers, but when she finally opened her eyes, man oh man, I melted.

My daughter, my life...